7 Weeks

The big news this week: Hands and feet are emerging from developing arms and legs — although they look more like paddles at this point than the tiny, pudgy extremities you're daydreaming about holding and tickling. Technically, your baby is still considered an embryo and has something of a small tail, which is an extension of her tailbone. The tail will disappear within a few weeks, but that's the only thing getting smaller. Your baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of a blueberry.

How far along? 7 weeks & 1 days.
Baby’s Size: a blueberry :)
Total Weight Gain: lost 4 lbs
Gender: Still think it's a girl!
Sleep: not sleeping. I have been having crazy dreams which I integrate into real life, I end up waking up talking to Dennis about ghosts or whatever else I'm dreaming about at the moment thinking it's in my real life.
Symptoms: Nausea every 20 minutes (it seems like). Heart burn every few days, crazy dreams, terrible gas (tmi sorry), exhausted still
Best Moments this week: We had our first OB appointment on Wednesday (may 19) with the new doctor, Dr. Peppy! OMG is that man peppy!! I am so excited to have found him and look forward to appointments now. His practice is one of the only ones at my hospital that do VBACs often and we are going to try for one! I'll also be getting a sonogram every few weeks after 28 weeks to measure my fluid because with Nolan my bag ruptured and leaked for weeks before my doctors caught it (even with me going to the ER and telling them), so that's pretty exciting. Just means I get to see my little sweet pea/nemo/tumper more often (I don't know what it's nick name is just yet...not until our U/S...which will be June 2!!!).
Food Cravings: no more pickles...nothing.
Food Aversions: diary. string cheese. cheese slices. milk. YUCK!!
What I miss: miss? since when?
What I am Looking forward to: Telling the family next weekend (maybe)
Milestones: First OB appointment.


Growing up

My little man will soon be ten months and that breaks my heart. I can't get over how quickly he has grown into this little adult with his likes and dislikes and his hilarious personality. His hair is also growing as wildly as he is and I absolutely REFUSE to cut it. I now under stand why some boys have longer hair than their mommies, it's just too hard to part with. That sweet little hair that was once pitch black and is now such a light blonde.

I've always had issues with commitment..."What color lipstick will I wear? Ahh...I'll wear them all and make my own color", "What show I do now? Go to bed? Get on the internet? Read? Clean?" There are too many options in life and I have never handled those options well. This may be why I am still engaged after I can't even count how many years now. Not because I have trouble committing to Dennis, please....that happened YEARS ago. But because I have trouble committing to colors, flowers, table designs, the PLACE. It's impossible for me to make choices. Nolan's birthday is no different. Although I think this particular even in my life as a lot more to do with the fact that I do not want my baby turning ONE! I already know the decorations, invitations, who's coming, etc...but I haven't sent out ONE invitation. I also have not reserved the club house yet, bad mommy!

Other than my procrastination to see my baby grow up he's already showing me he's growing up. He started walking this past Monday out of no where. He also stood up in his crib at school on Tuesday. Things are going too fast. Sometimes I'll try to sit with Nolan and cuddle him but it never lasts for more than a few moments because he is too busy exploring and mommy is getting in the way of that.

Dear Nolan,
There will be days that mommy will absolutely annoy and embarrass you. You will not stand to be around mommy and that is okay because we all go through "that stage" but I just want you to know that right now you are in your exercauser dancing the thing in circles to dance music. You are also "scream talking" because you want something else. Your hair is growing over your ears. You have two teeth. You have longer fingernails and toe nails than you should. You have a slight diaper rash which mommy was mostly able to clean up last night. You are wearing stylist plaid clothing and sucking on a penguins head. You have two HUGE cheeks that everyone pinches and/or sucks on. Your cheeks droop below your jaw line sometimes, making your neck invisible. Also, you have a mommy that loves you more than you will ever know and she would do anything for you. That same mommy is trying really hard to not cry while writing this because she has already done all of her makeup for the day. I love you baby.


5w5d Preggo

This is something I should have done with Nolan while I was pregnant. I'm going to keep these posts as private until we tell most people about this pregnancy. 

How far along? 5 weeks 5 days (at least I think so)Baby’s Size: a sweet pea!Total Weight Gain: only a couple of pounds but then I lose that weight, just depends on the week. Gender: I feel like it's a girl. Sleep: Still happening. I'm able to sleep a lot more comfortably this pregnancy (for the first trimester at least) than my pregnancy with Nolan. The first four weeks I was waking up some in the middle of the night having to pee but that has basically stopped. Now I just wake up rushing to the bathroom. Definitely exhausted though. I wave of exhaustion will just come over me at any point during the day and when that happens it's hard to keep my eyes open. Symptoms: exhaustion, nausea (sudden and quick at any time during the day), hungry all of the time, a like of pickles (i've never liked them or even tried them, I now have two jars in my fridge), a taste of metal in my mouth, crying in an instant for no real reason. Best Moments this week: Mother's Day but that wasn't particularly amazing by any standards (spent the entire day on plays with a screaming 9 month old), but it was still my first mother's day with Nolan and "sweet pea" so that is all that matters. Food Cravings: pickles. anything sour or salty. Food Aversions: none specifically but sometimes smells make me want to yak. We've walked into some restaurants the the smell was too much for me to deal with and made me nauseous. What I am Looking forward to: Our first OB appointment is in less than 1 week (5/19)!!! Milestones: Quit smoking, can that be one? :)