MIA

I just wanted to post a quick update because I know I've been MIA for a little while now. 

My dad was admitted to the hospital last Wednesday. 

On Thursday his doctor told him he is terminal. 

On Friday his doctor told him that he needs to go into hospice and has less than 6 months to live. 

I am a complete wreck. Dennis and I spent the last two weekends there with my dad and getting some things in order. This is too soon and things are going too fast. My family is flying in from Ohio already...we aren't sure he will make it very much longer. This is so hard. 

I know we all have to go through things like this in our lives but I'm only 27 and I'm losing my daddy. He won't get to see his grandchildren grow up. I cry anytime I see something that I used to do with my dad, his favorite restaurant, star trek, disney world, and so many other things. 

I am so upset that I'm going through so much right now, my cousin just passed away from brain cancer, my son has surgeries, and now my dad is passing away. This has been the worst 9 months of my life, it's a cruel world.

It's so hard to say bye to my dad now, not knowing if that will be the last time I see him. Wow. I'm a mess. Yesterday he said to me and Dennis that it's hard for him to accept the fact that he will never step inside of his home again. Ugh. Talk about breaking my heart.  

Tomorrow morning is also Kaleb's first surgery on his feet. 

Please keep our family in your thoughts and prayers. :/

Surgery

While we try to teach our children all about life,
Our children teach us what life is all about.
~Angela Schwindt

Kaleb saw his orthopedic doctor today to get another set of casts on. The only difference was, instead of getting two casts put on...he only got ONE put on. The one cast was put on his foot that is still dislocated. The cast will stay on for two weeks and then he will have his first surgery. His surgery is scheduled for May 24th. He will have casts put back on after the surgery and then on June 7th he will have his second foot surgery. Please let me explain to you in no uncertain terms...I am terrified. Don't get me wrong, our ortho doc is amazing and I definitely trust him but at the same time it's my baby. My not even 5 month old baby will be put under and cut open and have pins put in him. The during the second surgery he will have his achilles severed.  My poor poor baby. Although I'm sure he won't even notice what is going on, hopefully the operating room has a formula drip because this baby is all about food. I hope for the best and have a lot of hope that things will be just fine. I'm really hoping that all of these interventions will help and he will be able to walk normally when he gets older.

The one thing that I am sure about these days is that Kaleb is my hero. Seriously, most people haven't been through the things that he has been through and he does it with grace (as long as he has his formula every 3 hours). These babies are my life right now and carry me through so many things right now.

I'm trying my hardest to stay positive with everything that is going on these days. I really don't know what people do that don't have children to get them through the difficult days. What did I do? When Kaleb smiles at me and Nolan rushes to give me a hug and a kiss, everything melts away. Nothing else is as important as these two little people.

Thirty-One

I usually don't enter too many contests because I never win anything (maybe that's because I don't enter them?). Anyways, this morning I entered to win a utility tote from Thirty-One. One of the girls that I follow, Between the Lines, is hosting the giveaway. Lets all say a quick prayer that I can finally say I'm a winner...because this would be a GREAT win for me :)   The below picture is the correct tote however would be a different spiral pattern!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday and to all the mommy's out there, I hope you had a wonderful day and were treated well. I know I was!